(If you are reading this in my voice, you need to set the tone to drama queen)
I am finding the bloggosphere terribly disheartening at the moment.
Why is it that we all stand around saying that bloggers should be getting paid, that we should be more valued and then when someone starts to pave the way to really make something great from their blog we tear them down as fast as we can?
It seems that we all want blogs to succeed, to be popular and to be appreciated for their worth....
So long as they are no more successful than my blog
Or they have been around for the longest, or only if they do PR that is appealing to me, and that they are paid enough.
Why is it that we can celebrate blogs with such fan fare and support, and a great sense of community... To a point?
Together, our community of mum bloggers (as much as those words burn my tongue like regurgitated stomach acid) are a force never seen before. We are remarkably intelligent, abundantly funny, unbelievably supportive of each other, we have plenty to say and we do!
We have rebuilt our village, finding other like minded parents, and life long friends, no longer are our support networks bound by geographical convenience and whomever happened to birth their young at approximately the same time.
(Thank sweet eff for that!... I live in the geographical convenience of Redneck Central.. If I had to attend our local play group I would have chewed my own eye out)
We have all known our worth for a long time, we saw it in each other, we have been buoyed, comforted and occasionally grounded by our amazing community.
A group of parents, wonderfully different, with so much to offer.
so why now that our worth is being recognised are we all scrambling to first, to be bigger? and there fore...more worthy?
Blogs are very much a reflection of the writers personality, how the hell did it get so competitive? Are we in the midst of a personality competition?!?
I can tell you now that There are no winners in that game.
I can not tell you the difference some of the comments left on my blog from this beautiful community have made a difference to my life.
My whole life! The way I parent, the way I feel about myself, the way I conduct my day and my sense of self worth. You know who you are.
No small feat to buoy the self esteem of a high school drop out, teenage mother from the west.
You will never know the difference your words make to people reading them, even if they are something as simple as a comment.
Recently though, I have feel like I am connecting with a different community.
The comments on my blog have gone from being incredibly supportive and grounding, putting a spring in my step and a smile on my face to these.
I am under no illusion that this kind of thing is not par for the course... I mean, You get them when you plaster your life on something as public and as permanent as the Internet.
Only these did not come from bored 15 year olds... When it would be slightly comical.
Thanks to the marvelous Permanence that is the Internet, I managed to trace these back to two people in our community, sadly, one a fellow blogger and another a twitter community member and friend of the blogger (note, probably best not to enter my give away then come back later to troll my site)
Sometimes as many as four a day.
What the hell happened?
I know this for sure, I will not be driven away, I will no longer open my inbox and close it with a feeling of there being no point.. I wont let the nastiness of a few ruin something that quite possibly saved me. (pause for dramtic effect)
I will continue to support my blogging community,
I will not embark on a nasty tirade the minute someone posts something with an opinion that differs from mine,
I will not take the personal writings shared by someone else out of context and form a lynch mob,
I will not engage in slanderous bullying, linking to other sites and naming people and spreading bullshit.
I will not tear others down.
I will also no longer hover over the publish button, deciding weather or not I should hit publish... (OK Thats a huge lie, because I did for ages on this one)
I'm running my own race, loving my community, and I will write regardless if I have 1 reader or 1000000 and I will take the opportunities that come my way.
For me, like the olden days.
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